I am still Alive [SNIPPETS]

More than before actually.

Honest to God
I forgot my password =x

Anywho
But what's really important I'm not clinically depressed anymore lol
& This blog will be taking a turn for the better in the upcoming months
Even if they're small- Expect frequent updates
& a real reflection of who i am.

ALL SIDES OF Me
.. Well most

I'm a wee bit opinionated .. FASTEN YOUR SEATBELT =]

Good Hair - Chris Rock ; Movie Review

MY Overall Rating : 3 out of 5 'When Chris Rock’s daughter, Lola, came up to him crying and asked, “Daddy, how come I don’t have good hair?” the bewildered comic committed himself to search the ends of the earth and the depths of black culture to find out who had put that question into his little girl's head!'
- festival.sudance.org
It was like a Doctor Phil episode. He identifies and identifies the problem, but no matter how much talking it seems like he's done you never really walk away with a useful conclusion or realistic solution. But at least you know the problem. =]

Because Chris Rock is classified as solely a comedian/entertainer, I can't be too surprised in the turn out of this film. At a glance I was under the impression that Rock's the motivation for creating this documentary was to bring attention to black hair, create awareness of the hate many of us subconsciously have towards our tight kinks and coils in a comedic/educational way. Based on his daughter Lola's statement one would assume Rock would go on an expedition with this film to show girls around the world just like his young and feeble daughter the beauty of our natural hair. Unfortunately though, he did just the opposite. It almost seems like Chris Rock's movie "Good Hair" perpetuated the Uncle Tom mentality to some degree. [And this all could of been avoided with a meaningful conclusion.]

In all fairness I give Chris credit for tackling this difficult topic. He commuted far and wide to find out where our weaves, relaxers and straightening tools come from. He educated his audience on the dangers of relaxers and the pain behind our "human hair weaves." He undoubtedly exposed the issues we have. From a journalistic perspective however, I can adamantly say he DID NOT COVER THE STORY. Which means he did not address each angle therefore misleading the audience. So many very important factors were left out.

I hate to be the hair police, and I know this topic can be lightheartedly addressed in a comedic fashion; but black hair is so much more than hair. It's become an illness, and an obsession. The weaves and the relaxer is not the problem, its the FEAR we have behind wearing our hair the way it naturally grows out of our heads that is sick, sad, and disheartening. His general goal in ending this mentality that so many blacks have towards their hair was not reached. I believe to an extent that this topic could have been better handled by someone else. I don't think Chris fully understood the depth of this topic.

I would of liked to have seen the finishing moments of this film shift focus from our undying efforts to tame our hair and focus more on allowing it flourish naturally. He completely neglected our roots and our options as black women. I do not believe that this was intentional nor do i feel like the documentary was a failure.

I feel like the film accepts the Uncle Toms mentality without debunking it and for that reason it reflects black people negatively. In a nut shell, this movie was an exposé of black hair secrets. Most things come to know surprise:

• We know many black women wear weaves and relax their hair because they don't think their own hair is "good"
• We know most black woman would rather die than go nappy.
• We know many of our own black men prefer straight hair
• We know most people think black hair is not appealing.
• [AND I KNOW THAT THESE GENERALIZATIONS ARE NOT ALWAYS TRUE SO DONT ATTACK ME!]

As a natural I was itching in my seat waiting for Chris to bring in the positive spin on our hair and address the "other side" / "green side" for a real kick ass ending that would just pull everything together... that never happened.
The film ended somewhat distastefully as it quickly brushed over the cliche concept of 'loving ourselves because we are not our hair.' Overall the film was entertaining but disappointing.

-Macy

Highlight Quotes

"Taking a Shower with a man can be more intimate than sex. Like your my nigger for real." - Nia Long

This made me laugh because it's absolutely true. I've heard females I know say they wouldn't get in the shower with a dude if they're not too close with him because they wouldn't want to mess up their hair. Meanwhile they've had sex with them already. I love Nia Long she's absolutely adorable by the way.



Chris Rock: Do you feel more intimate with white woman because of their hair
Unnamed ignorant black man in barber shop: HELL YEAH!!!!!!!!

My thoughts: Uncle Ruckus in full effect. He sounded like an absolute douche bag. I can't remember his quote verbatim but why would I want to .. its was complete nonsense.




"Perms are apart of black culture."

-Al Sharpton

My thoughts: Lol i think its absolutely hilarious how he makes this lame excuse. His argument was that relaxers are apart of black culture because we made them. He completely disregards the fact relaxers were created to submit ourselves to white supremacy. It's not our culture. It's the remains of our oppression. I could see how it was 'raped' into our culture and embedded in us among many other things, but it's far from black culture. He goes on to contradict himself with this statement:

"We wake up and comb our oppression... even set it on our night stands."
-AL SHARPTON


"If a woman aint happy with herself, she's gonna bring pain to every-fucking-body."
-Ice T

My thoughts: He's not lying about that at all. I know I do, I know my mom does, and I know all the woman in my life do lol. But the content of what he was saying was that woman should do whatever with their hair that makes me happy. I agree, as long as you aren't ashamed of who you truly are.


"Allowing my hair to grow the same way it comes out of my head is revolutionary."
-_______

My thoughts: This is about the only time the film touches on natural hair really. But this powerful statment could of potentially initiated that much more powerful ending the documentary was missing. It's like the film opened and quickly closed pandora's box with this lol [ OH NO ! THAT WOULD BE TOO INTERESTING]

Things I Want to Instill in my Children. PT 1

"*mother is God in the eyes of a child."

One of those things you write in your phone notes. (Or maybe one of those things I write in my phone notes lol. Still in the makings)

Truth be told. I don't like children. I feel like they suck the life out of people and take more love than they give. But there was never a time where I didn't realize that children are a gift. In light of that fact - I discovered children are a creation with minds of their own. I realize I don't like children because I don't like people and people raise children lol. While people like me and John Mayer are waiting on the world to change I reached the sudden epiphany that we are the world. And we teach the world through our children. I never felt more honored to know that one day I would have my own children until i realized the impact i could have on at least one persons life. And in essence, "change my own little piece of the world."

To My unborn son & daughter:

The things I want to instill in my children

- love yourself
- embrace your culture
- respect other cultures
- remain open minded
- be strong minded
- become an independent thinker
- know I'm imperfect but i want whats best for you
- respectfully tell me when I'm wrong
- feel comfortable enough to confide in me
- forgive for your own freedom
- each mistake has a lesson and not just a penalty
- your body is a sacred universe share it with parallel energy
- what you would kill to change as a young teenager you will grow to love in cherish as an adult ' you will found that the very thing you resent as a child is what distinguishes you as a unique and beautiful individual
- there is art in imperfection
- growing apart doesn't equal betrayal though it may feel like it
- god doesn't make mistakes
- the things we create last longer than We do
- the things we create are a reflection of our souls universe
- because they don't agree doesn't mean you're wrong
- but listen as loud as you speak
- respect others opinions even if you think they are complete morons
- own up to your mistakes and flaws
- though time heals everything no problem can be solved if you walk away from it
- walking away doesn't always mean quitting . Sometimes walking away is the solution as contradictory as it may sound
- to make peace with yourself you will sometimes have to remove negative energy before you can see clearly and that is where you will find your solution
- don't burry the problem, forgotten lessons cannot be learned if we forget
- you don't need anyone in your life who hinders your growth
- you don't need anyone in your life who doesn't see the beauty in you
- everyone has a story to tell, some will make you sick to your stomach
- ignorance is bliss and most people are happy not knowing
- knowing and understanding the reality of it all is painful but makes you wiser than one who doesn't
- some people live in complete denial and have and want no concept of reality. i had a hard time accepting that that's their problem.
- people will always find a way to divide themselves, set lines of separation and superiority
- "we all bleed shit and die"
- social stigmas are created and not born
- change your shortcomings for your own well-being
- some people don't even want to understand change, and don't want to see you succeed - fuck those people, allow them to bask in their misery.
- women are the mothers of the world
- respect women
- women may seem emotional but real women are the heart of humanity and tender reflection of a cold world
- when a women behaves like Less of a real women respect her in light of the fact that she is someones daughter and mother even if she may not see her own value
- real black women are strong and not ruthless
- a real black woman is a powerful undying force, cherish her.
- real men have their place in a household, don't let anyone one tell you a man isn't needed.
- in fact more real men would make this world a better place. there aren't many.
- no one else can or should validate you.
- anything you put your name on should be nothing less than amazing.
- love doesn't come with instructions
- losing someone you love will be painful
- heartbreak is one of the hardest things you will have to deal with
- understand that heartbreak is a key part of life and ones growth
- know when to let go
- respect yourself
- people say mean things when they're angry
- be careful not to burn bridges when you argue
- words echo for a lifetime
- learn to be a man/woman but never lose the child in you
- finding the child you were born as, is finding your lifelong happiness
- life is not sunny days, butterflies and star filled nights but it is truly beautiful
- obstacles are adversities you WILL overcome
- "god never gives you more than you can handle"
- you will spend your entire life living up to your name, you are not who are supposed to be until you die
- everyone has room to grow
- life will never be perfect but is good enough
- understand others pain
- brilliance is easily conquered by fear
- a world of opportunities is in our own hands
- when you fight with yourself remember that you have complete control over the enemy
- sometimes you have to hit the bottom to make your way back up to the top / laws of physics
- you are not invincible
- tell your children your story.
- if you feel alienated remember that when i made you, you became forever apart of me.. god is with you and you will never be alone

I cannot save you from this world - and I'd be a fool to try to shelter you.

No matter what I so desperately want to instill in you I know that you will grow and become your own person. You may learn values and lessons in life I never had to. I respect and appreciate your individual journey. Like i said , Life is beautiful & you will have your very own story to tell. But always remember mine - it was my gift to you. I will love you when I don't agree with you. You are apart of me, you are a peice of my universe. Be happy, love wisely, be you entirely.

- Love
Mommy

Leave Him Alone

1987 - Leave Me Alone; Michael Jackson.
This is one of my favorite videos from MJ. Although there wasn't much dancing like what's expected of Michael, it did beautifully reflect his imagination, creativity and true feelings. Michael wanted nothing more than for the media to just leave him and his personal life alone up until the day he died. But because he is Michael Jackson that will never happen. Even today his name is referred to on a day to day basis, and more and more stories are arising. People are trying desperately to unveil the hidden life of this superstar. It's none of our business really. But I'd be lying to say I'm not even remotely interested or that I don't intend to focus this post on something personal about MJ.

The reward for hardwork is indeed more hardwork. The price you pay for being a high acclaimed celebrity is no small one. With fame comes lost of privacy, lost of close relationships, expectations to live up to, defamation of character in many cases. And if you're anything like Michael Jackson and other child stars who's fame followed them into adulthood you're destined to have a few loose screws. I want to address Michael's existing or non existing issue with self hatred. Did he hate being black? You draw your own conclusion based on some of these proceeding facts.

I'm into youtube nowadays and this topic is being widely addressed.

Some would argue that Michael, like other any other celebrity wanted to fit the bill of hollywood beauty, which is almost exclusively defined by Eurocentric features.

STRIKE ONE
Michael is the only Jackson sibling to be hit with a severe Pigmentation disease while being a high profiled star. Over the years his skin virtually transformed from deep brown to a pasty unnatural white.

He also went from afro-kinky, to curly, to completely straight hair. But this may be just a sign of keeping up with trends.

THEN CAME THIS INTERVIEW [go to 4:43]


I personally believe that Michael does in fact have vitiligo.
Michael makes the claim's that he's a black American with a lot pride in who he is.
Refreshing. This interview also brings up strike two.

STRIKE TWO
Michael's surgeries.
He makes the point that many celebrities have gotten plastic surgeries. It almost seems as if he's saying this is apart of their hollywood lifestyle. Which may be true.
When Michael Jackson passed away his nose was in what is called a "conclusive state." This terms means that his nose was altered so many times that it is virtually impossible to manipulate it any further.
For a nose to reach it's conclusive state it would have to undergo cosmetic surgery several times.
Contradiction at it's finest. Two surgeries?

STRIKE THREE
Michaels serious relationships, and what seemed like an infatuation with white women.

• Michael weds Caucasian Lisa Marie Presley in 1994.

I'm not saying by any means that interracial dating ALWAYS amounts to self hatred. That isn't ALWAYS true. [I'll talk about this later]

• Michael weds caucasion Debbie Rowe

• Michael always seemed to keep close relationships with white people, just a daunting fact

STRIKE THREE

In Bob Jones' book "The man behind the Mask," Michael refers to ordinary black people as "slaboos," and claims he didnt want "slaboo" children. Which brings us to our LAST OFFENSE and icing on the cake.

FINAL STRIKE!

Michael has 3 children white as snow.
The first 2 Children are concluded to not be biologically Michael's. Leading us to believe that Michael chose a white sperm doner to produce his non slaboo children.

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ALTERNATIVELY IN MICHAELS DEFENSE ..

• Michael makes the claim that he loves being black and loves black people
• Michael Jackson dated several other black women but these relationships weren't as highly publicized [Stephanie Mills, Romonica Harris, Shana Mangatal, and Naomi Campbel]
• He was even engaged to Romonica Harris at one point
• Michael Jackson wouldn't be the only colorstruck black man born in the 1950's. I believe that Michael Jackson was brought up in a time where Negroid features weren't celebrated as beautiful. Today we are still learning to embrace black beauty. I believe that Michael had a bit of a disdain for his appearance, and it MAY HAVE had something to do with him resenting his father and resembling him to any degree. I believe that Michael Jackson did love black people, but he like many other black people wasn't brought up with the appreciation of black beauty. Because he is a prime target in the media his self-hate is amplified even more, when in reality many of us and of our parents and our grandparents were brought up to have this same mentality. We can't blame him for that. I still respect him, his music, his creativity, his artistic contributions, his distinct benevolence and his legacy. So may he truly rest in peace.

I don't think it's fair for many of us to attack a deceased person that has accomplished so much and had a good heart. None of us as fans knew Michael to judge him. And I especially don't think it's fair to attack the victim. He's a victimin so many ways and he is not solely to blame for displaying acts of self hatred. WAKE UP! This is a HUGE problem in the black community and Michael isn't the first or the last to exude self hatred.

We are the victims in so many ways.
And not the type of victim that needs attention or some feeling sorry for. We are the kind of victims that won't allow ourselves to rise above our adversities and move on. We're victims of brainwashing.
And we still allow ourselves to walk around with invisible slave chains around our minds and believe we have limitations as a people. Erasing generations of self hatred and brainwashing is not a proccess that occurs over night. Especially when so many blacks are in denial. Unfortunately we may not see a HUGE change in our generation, but it starts with individual change. and that's all we really can do.


Michael you ARE loved...

LEAVE HIM ALONE
RIP